Have you ever noticed how we subconsciously know when an anniversary of a tragic date is about to occur? Every year, since April 8th of 2009, my family grieves over the date my husband suffered a traumatic brain injury. My daughter, husband, and myself grieve over the person he once was and who he use to be. I believe that when someone is severely injured, it is as if their former self died. So, we grieve for that former self every year on the anniversary of what happened to us.
This can also be anniversary dates of loved ones who have passed. My mother passed in 2014. I don't even have to remember the day as my body just knows. I can physically feel the date approaching in my heart. Even though, my brain may be on auto pilot and not think of the date.
How does this happen and is there a way past this?
I think this statement is true and I will tell you why.
Today, a friend of mine posted a facebook post calling us to action. She asked us to share our story by creating our own blog. I've had this blog for two years now. Though, I have never published it. I thought, "Why bother. No one will care what I have to say." Today I changed my mind. After I posted my comment on my friend's post, it dawned on me. It's been 5 days since the anniversary of my husband's "almost" death. Wow! I didn't even realize it. Every year the date approaches, I grieve and stress as if I am waiting for this horrible mountain to be moved. This year, I didn't remember.
So, you may say..so what? Well, this is a small victory. I believe everyday we learn how to live with the pain of grief. Everyday, we heal and it hurts less. Of course, there are days it all comes crashing down on top of us. But, that's normal. That is how you grieve. You don't forget. You just learn how to live.
I no longer want to wait for the anniversary of what once was. I want to move forward and live with what will be. Living in the past isn't the answer. You can't change what has happened. All you can do is live life ..one second..one minute..one hour..and one day at a time 😁❤